She opened the door to ‘his’ room and looked around. He
was staring up at the ceiling, at the pencils still hanging there. She waited
for her “What’s up, Doc,” but it didn’t come. “Mulder?” “Yeah?” “Bored?” He turned to look at her and after a moment. “Maybe, why?” She looked at the mark on his forehead, not yet completely
healed. So close, it had been so damn close and here he was ready to charge in
again, even if he didn’t admit it. It had been what he needed, much as she
hated to admit that. She had a fulfilling career now; he needed more than to be
here, home alone. She perched against the desk, scanning the wall in front of
her. Samantha’s picture was on the back of the door and out of sight right now. “You enjoyed it, didn’t you?” “What do you want me to say, Scully? You don’t want me to
- “ “Hold it. That’s not what I said. I said I didn’t want
the darkness here in our home.” “With my work, what used to be my work, that was
pretty inevitable.” “It doesn’t have to be. You could investigate . . . other
things.” “Like?” She hesitated so long he sat up, putting his feet
on the floor from where they had rested on the desk. “Scully?” She shook her head, looking at anything but him. He took
her hand, pulling her back to him physically as well as emotionally. She pulled
away and rose from the desk heading for the door. He was on his feet instantly. His arm went around her
waist pulling her to him, her back firmly against his chest. He leaned around
her and seeing that her eyes were closed, said again “Scully?” “William.” Her voice was so low he thought he’d imagined
it for an instant. He turned her to face him now. “William? You, you want me
to - “ “No, no I don’t. Forget it.” “Not possible, Scully. I thought that was out of the
question.” “It is, I’m sorry, I - “ “How is your patient?” She looked down at her feet. “It seems to be working.
He's improving.” “And you want to find our son.” “Mulder,” she tried to pull away, but he wouldn’t release
her. “He wouldn’t be safe. Even after all this time, we can’t
be sure - “ he started. “I know! I know, I shouldn’t have said any- “ “We couldn’t have him, not with us, but maybe we could know
he was safe, happy.” “Stop.” “Scully, where would I start?” She shook her head and pulled away, heading for the
kitchen. He followed, invading her space. What had she been
thinking to say that out loud? "Talk to me, Scully." She shook her head and bent down to pull out a skillet. "Scully, stop. Tell me what you want. Tell me what you're
thinking." "I don't know!" She turned on him and he actually backed
away for an instant. "Scully?" "I, I'm sorry." Damn, she seemed . . . defeated. What the
hell had he missed? "You've been thinking about it. Don't shut me out, not
about this." "We can't. You're right, we can't have him. He'd never be
safe. I just . . . " "How would I go about finding out anything?" Again she shook her head, but said softly, “Skinner.” “Skinner?” “He handled everything. I couldn’t . . . “ He pulled her against him then and held her silently. They
needed words less and less after all this time. ***** Mulder opened the door and Kim looked up and blinked.
“Agent, uh, Mr. Mulder.” He grinned. “Skinman have a minute?” Before she could respond, Skinner stepped out of his
office, glowering at Mulder. “What?” “Just wanted to thank you.” Skinner rolled his eyes but motioned for Mulder to follow
him inside his office. “I really do appreciate what you - “ “It felt like old times, Mulder. Scully and me, saving
your ass.” Mulder chuckled then and slipped a piece of paper to him
over the desk. Skinner looked down and his eyes widened. Shaking his head, he continued the conversation. “I hope
you’re not here to ask for your old job back.” “No, I don’t think the FBI wants me any more than I want
it, but it was interesting working on an investigation again. Especially an
X-File.” “And you’d be available for more X-Files in the future?” “I don’t know. I think working for myself might be the
best for everyone.” Skinner just looked at him then. Mulder nodded slowly and
Skinner’s eyes narrowed. “Are you sure?” “I might not be successful, but I need to try.” Skinner’s shoulders slumped slightly, but he recognized
that look on Mulder’s face. “What about Scully?” “It was her idea.” Skinner picked up a pen then, and after another moment’s
deliberation scribbled something on the paper. “Be careful.” “Who me? I always am.” He grinned at Skinner and took the
paper as he rose. “Don’t want to take up too much of your time. Again, I want
to thank you.” “I hope you still feel that way later.” ***** He pulled the paper out of his pocket after he was in the
car. It was the name of an agency, nothing more. Well, Skinner couldn’t have
given him much with both of them being so careful. Even Skinner hadn’t tried to
make him believe there was no reason for such caution. He’d wanted to argue, Mulder could tell, but knowing Scully
had instigated the search, he’d given at least a clue. International World
Adoptions. International? They hadn’t sent him overseas? No, no people in
America were adopting from all over the world, other countries didn’t send
people over to adopt American babies, did they? Shit. He headed home, his mind racing. Now, did he say anything
to Scully? Could he even hide anything from her now? At least he had a little
time; she wasn’t home from the hospital yet. He got online immediately and
began his research. Skinner hadn’t gone far, the main office was in Virginia. ***** He’d waited until the end of the day. Now was the time.
He pushed open the door to the agency. The receptionist looked up and her eyes
widened. He turned on his most seductive smile and moved toward her. “Good
afternoon.” She nodded, not yet speaking. “My name is Byers. I was wondering if I could have a
minute with Ms. Medford. I know it’s late in the day, but I’ve driven quite a
ways and I only need five minutes.” “I’ll, I’ll check. Just have a seat.” She picked up the
phone and turned slightly away from him. “Becky, there’s someone here to see
Ms. Medford,” she dropped her voice. “Get up here and see this guy!” Mulder looked down at the magazine in his hands. Well, at
least he had her in his corner. Quickly a young woman entered the lobby from
the hall to the right. She looked at the receptionist who nodded toward Mulder.
Becky turned toward him and smiled. “Good afternoon. Do you have an
appointment?” “No, I’m sorry. But I only need five minutes. I realize
it’s late in the day . . . “ “Let me check. Come on back to my office.” She glanced
over at the receptionist who hit the button to reopen the door to the hall. He followed her. There were no cameras and most of the
doors were open. They all had small removable plates to the right stating whose
office was whose. There was also a conference room, and what he was looking for
- the file room. Becky indicated he should take a seat in the small waiting
area of her office and ducked into Ms. Medford’s office. She returned quickly
followed by an older woman with steel gray hair cut in a masculine style. “I’m
Ms. Medford, the director of the agency. May I help you?” She indicated that
Mulder should follow her into the office. “I’m Melvin Byers.” She took a seat behind the desk and
looked up at him. He took the seat in front of the clean surface. “I understand
that my son was placed for adoption by this agency. I need to know what actions
to take to find him.” Her face went impassive at his words. “I’m sorry, Mr.
Byers, but that’s impossible.” “Impossible?” “Yes, sir. This agency has a well earned reputation for
complete privacy.” “I was not consulted when my son was placed for adoption -
“ “That’s something you need to discuss with the child’s
mother, Mr. Byers.” “Funny, she said the same thing about you.” Ms. Medford gave him a tight smile. “Believe me, I do have
sympathy for you, but it is quite impossible for me to give you or anyone any
information.” “I have ID - “ “I’m sure you do, and I am not doubting your claim of
paternity. That isn’t the issue, Mr. Byers. I have a duty to protect the child
and the child alone. We do extensive work prior to placing a child and do
follow ups for years.” “If I got a court order . . . “ Again that tight smile. “You can certainly try. Before
you spend the money, you might want to see how others attempting the same thing
have done. Please take my assurance that your son is in good hands. I realize
that isn’t enough, but it is all of the information that I can give you. What I
can offer you now, is to take your contact information and when your son turns
eighteen the information can be made available to him. Then if he decides to
contact you . . . “ “Eighteen?” She nodded quietly. He hung his head, acting the part. No way was that going
to be enough for him. Scully had asked him to try. She might not know he had
taken up the challenge, but he would do more than that. “I’ll have to get back
to you.” “I understand. I wish I could do more, but remember we are
acting for the benefit of your child.” Mulder didn’t respond, nodding slightly. She rose and he
belatedly stood as well. She escorted him to the door and out into the hall
indicating the door at the far end. She turned then and moved down the hall in
a different direction. He started down the hall after nodding to Becky, then
pretended to remember something and turned back. “I left my umbrella in her
office.” “Oh, I can get - “ He pushed the send button on the phone
in his pocket and her desk phone rang. He waved and stepped back into the office and picked up the
small black umbrella he had purposely left under the chair. Then he was out
again before Becky finished saying ‘hello’ to no one on the other end. He waved
the umbrella at her and moved on down the hall. When he heard the receiver hit
the phone, he pressed the send button again. There was no one in the hall so he quickened his steps and
opened the door to the reception area. She turned to look at him and smiled.
Again he pressed send, this time on three phones, causing her small switchboard
to go crazy. She whirled away from him and began picking up phones. He ducked
back into the hall and hurried to the file room. She’d seen him, and with luck
she would think he had slipped out while she battled the phones. He ducked into the file room, pushing the door nearly
closed. He turned to look at the room. Files, lots and lots of files.
Paper-less society, my eye. He flipped off the light and groped for the first
cabinet in the pitched blackness. He followed it around and down the second
corridor formed by the files. There he squatted down to wait. It wasn’t long. He heard the door open. “Well, who knew
someone can actually save some electricity.” She shut the door completely and
he heard the lock turn. There was the sound of feet in the hall now, heading
out. They didn’t seem to be losing any time leaving. Still he waited; someone could still be working. He waited
a full fifteen minutes before approaching the door. He pulled on his latex
gloves and turned on the pen light in his hand, checking the door. The hall
light was out as well and he could hear nothing. He carefully closed the door again, making sure it was
locked, then turned on the light. Damn, he could use Scully on this, but since
she was unaware . . . Now, what was the system? He quickly found the files for 2002. He didn’t know the
exact date Scully had turned William over to them. One of the things they
didn’t talk about. It was just too painful for both of them. It had been
spring; he did know that so he started in March. There were no names on the files, only case numbers, which
was going to slow him down. He let his intuition lead him and he closed the
first drawer and opened the second. He began flipping through the files. He
came to one that was so thin he almost missed it. He pulled it out and opened
it. There was a picture of a baby, six or so months old, but the name of the
mother was also a code. He flipped through the pages clipped to the file. It
was the word ‘Skinner’ that caught his eye. They hadn’t bothered to code that.
They obviously had not done the same follow up for him as
with other children. After his placement, there had been nothing more. So much
for his best interest. They wouldn’t miss this file. It hadn’t been touched since
it had been added to the drawer. The other files were worn slightly; this one
was as crisp as when it was taken from the box. He wanted to read it, and he
wanted to take his time. He turned to the birth certificate and scanned it. Father
unknown. He closed his eyes in pain at that. Even knowing it was for the
protection of all three of them didn’t help. William was his son, despite
realities, he wanted the world to know that . . . someday. Wyoming. He couldn’t move; his son had been sent to
Wyoming. Okay, this information was six years old but he knew something now.
He grasped the cabinet to steady himself. He moved to the computer in the corner and booted it up.
Of course there was a password. Mulder looked around the desk, finally flipping
the mouse pad upside down. Yep, there it was. He fed it and then William’s
file number into the search block. Van de Camp. Oh God, a name. He felt
lightheaded. There was little more information there than in the file,
so he pulled up the number referring to Scully. Her medical records were there
but incomplete. There was no mention of her cancer at all. Yeah, they did a
great job here. His first impulse was to erase both files, but that might only
draw attention to them. Instead he fed in the last thirty numbers that had been
pulled up, burying both of their numbers deep in the memory, then he deleted the
memory and the cookies. He fed back in ten more numbers. Okay, that should at
least make it difficult to recreate, if anyone realized someone had been on the
computer. He powered down and rose. Tucking William’s file into the
back on his slacks, secured by his belt, he adjusted his jacket and moved
quickly to the door. He carefully opened it and looked out. The only light was
the exit sign over the door to the reception area. He took a deep breath and
closed the door, checking to ensure that it was locked, then moved to the exit
door in long strides. There was a light on there, behind the desk, but the room
was empty. He wasn’t going to be able to lock the door behind him, but
hopefully that wouldn’t be noticed until tomorrow morning. He lucked out again
that no one was in the hall, and he hurried to the stairs. At each floor he
cracked the door to see if there was activity. He finally found some on the
third floor and opened the door, slipping the gloves off and stuffing them into
his pocket. He moved to the elevator then and pressed the button to
call it. A couple of women came out of one of the offices and joined him,
waiting for the car. He felt their eyes, but they didn’t speak so he kept quiet
as well. All three exited on the first floor and Mulder held the
door open for them as they moved out to the sidewalk. He turned away from them
and headed for his car a couple of blocks down. With a little luck, no one would even know he had been in
the building. He’d been careful to leave no trace. ***** He looked at the picture from the file again for at least
the five hundredth time. The only pictures of William he’d ever seen were the
two that Scully carried. One was of the three of them together, one of just
William and him. The baby had only been a couple of days old. Scully had seen
him older like this, he never had. He looked up as the alarm chirped. Scully had opened the
gate. He glanced at the clock. She was running late and would no doubt be
exhausted. Dinner was ready, thanks to the crock pot. He headed for the
bathroom and turned on the hot water in the tub, then moved to the front door.
He opened it and stood on the porch watching her. “What’s up Doc?” She looked up with a tired smile, climbing the stairs to
stand at his side. She leaned against him, soaking up some Mulder strength
before standing upright again and heading inside. “Long day?” “Yes.” “Wanna talk about it?” “Sorry. I’m just so angry at Father Ybarra. He’s
encroaching more and more outside of his area. He should not be making medical
decisions for these children, for this child. I don’t know why he’s started
this. When I began there, he listened to my diagnoses and theories. Now, now
it’s as though . . . “ “As though you’re spooky and he doesn’t want to look too
closely at that?” She looked up clearly startled. “Why do you say that?” “I don’t know. I was wondering why all the push-back
myself. Does he know about our little jaunt with the FBI?” “How could he?” Mulder looked down at her then and she had the grace to
blush. “It’s been so long, Mulder. Is that always going to haunt us?” He pulled her against him and her arms went around his
waist. “I’m afraid so, Scully.” She sighed and tightened her hold on him. “Then it’s a
good thing I still have you.” He chuckled and kissed the top of her head. “Can I get
that in writing?” She swatted at his chest as she stepped back. “Dinner?” “In the crock pot. Your bath is running now.” She looked up startled. “Bath?” “Thought you might be tired; you are late.” She let her head fall back against his chest. “Remind me
to thank you later.” “Will do. Go on.” He watched her walk toward the bathroom, her steps already
lighter. When he’d given her a little time to get settled in the hot water he
knocked, but entered the bath without waiting for an invitation. He handed her
a glass of the red wine she liked so much and took a seat on the toilet. “Okay, out with it. Is there another woman?” she asked,
taking a sip. He blinked. “Excuse me?” “Well, dinner ready, a hot bath, wine? You’ve obviously
done something you think needs forgiveness,” she pinned him with a look and he
smiled. “Who me? Let me know when you’re ready to get out and I’ll
dish - “ “Just sit here with me for a little while.” “Gladly.” He moved to the tub then and began rubbing her
shoulders, moving farther down with each stroke. He grinned at the moan she
tried to stifle. “I’ll give you an hour to stop that,” she murmured. “Still think there’s another woman?” “Mmm, no. I’ll repay you later.” “I’m gonna hold you to that.” He continued his attentions
and she lay her head back against him and let the tension of her day disappear.
When the water cooled, she allowed him to hand her out and
drape the towel around her, continuing the massage until she was dry. Then he
handed her the white terry cloth robe and opened the door. She trailed him to
the kitchen, still more bemused than anything else, and took the seat he
indicated as he took up the salsa chicken and rice. “Eat. Maybe we can go to bed early,” he winked at her and
she chuckled. Whatever had put him in this mood was worth it. He’d been
quiet the past couple of days, so to see him like this was . . . stimulating. They ate, enjoying the quiet, the company until suddenly
Scully looked up, her fork dropping into her plate. “You found him.” “No,” he laid his fork down, “I found a name - “ “Mulder!” “I haven’t gone any further. I wanted to know, for sure,
what you wanted. I can pursue this, but I want us together on it. Together all
the way. You have to tell me what you feel, not just what you think. All of
it.” Her eyes looked huge in her face, the fear warring with the
hope. What did she want?
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